I AM SHE

I am she
she is every woman
who is an epitome
of unconditional love, relentless patience and unique devotion

OFF THE BRIM

For a reason
for good, for bad
for god knows whose treason
for me, for you for my lad
for a day when time stood still
for a time i went numb
when i could feel the guilt
when all i did was succumb
to the pain i felt in my heart
to the wonder of the meticulous part
for it did give me an insight
it did justice to my plight
the way i see it
it has always been there
i just had to do the requisite
i had to just let it sink in
and it all went off the brim....

Trampled Flowers

the days go on and on
i wonder
how life would've been
with different choices
with few other scenes
life is a little crumpled, a little in dismay
but isn't it like the flowers
trampled beneath the feet
still fragrating
still very much the serene aroma
still the beauty
just a little crushed
is how i see it now
like the sun rays peeping from
behind the dark cloud
there is a ray of hope
in life which never goes
i knew it all along
but now i feel the sea waves on my toes.

CALM

Changing winds
the direction changes
heart longs
but sees a light somewhere
where the heart knew it always
that someone will be
waiting in the dark
but remaining silent
i ask my God of my fate
and He tells me
i get the answer
and i wait, wait a little more....
then the wait is finally over
it was just the passing wind
it was just at the brink of time
and now there is tranquility
the waters are now calm.

the world seems overshadowed with a lot of prejudices
running around every now and then
one knows no places to go to
which roads to cross, which bridges to break

the sounds of silent prayers
the days of irrevocable layers of light

WALK ALONE

The day speeds past
as if in a hurry
I am reminded of my sadness
when I enter the deeper skin of me
and I know I’m yet again at the threshold
of what I believed to be a journey

A journey I am afraid to undertake
A journey I so want to avoid
I am at the edge of a cliff
Both sides await my decision
I am at the zilch of it all
At the crossroads
Where no two paths cross
And its only me walking alone

Is this the point where I make a brand new beginning?
or is it the zenith of life, the zenith of my universe?
I run into the bewilderness, I walk in the shadows, I walk alone
On a path untold, unheard, unexplored
I walk till I lose it all
I walk till I fail to walk more
I walk till the end of time
I run then
And I ultimately await my love….
Here where I’ve always waited,
Here where I’ve always found it

It is here that I lose myself
It is here that I become one
With the union of my love with me

Here becomes another epitome
of sacrifice and surrender.

SOMETIMES

Sometimes situations and events take place in such an ardent manner that they totally reverse the course of your life.
Sometimes you think that whatever happened, should not have happened.
Sometimes you repent whatever you did or said, not realizing that if it happened, there was some reason behind it. the reason may not definitely be something good. Maybe it makes you realize the importance and the effect of the good that follows it.
Sometimes, you are caught in such a turmoil that it is difficult for you to arrive at a decision.
Sometimes you feel like running away, from people, from places, even from your ownself. Little do you realize that you are but a part of this universe- where would you go, what in the world are you looking for?
Sometimes you think that life itself is no good...
Sometimes.....
Sometimes......
Time is bad just sometimes.....

THE JOY OF LIFE

Nothing in the world can compare
the joy of the mother who gives birth
whose child is her part, so rare
and she alone, can know the child's worth

everyone looks for happiness in their lives
they look for means by which
they feel, happiness can thrive.
But doesn't happiness go away?
and sadness makes its way
People aren't always happy
Joy isn't always to stay

People run after money
feeling it'll make them happy
little do they realize
that money only adds to their misery
True joy comes from within
it comes from contentment
from achievement
from victory over sin
Ever tried to make someone happy and
seen what it does to you?
you grow happier and content
in a way so true.
Pain is everywhere
suffering and despair
Pain gives way to joy
If there is no pain
there is no suffering
and there is no realization
of life's offering.

Happy is the one who lives life as it comes
the one who has fewer demands
from life, from God
and ultimately, joy is the reward.

Flowing Waters

Trickling waters
washing showers
blooming flowers
country roads
how life grows
clear blue skies
mountain highs
gushing waves
setting sun
tear- stained eyes
abstract emotions
strained relations
distant faces
forsaken memories
flying time
flowing waters......never ending life....

THE CHOICE

how it all changes
it takes a turn
one's individuality diminishes
it all settles down after the burns
the hours pass like decades
life grows more n more uncertain
grey is but the only shade
one's existence is harmed, it is frail

it is all about a tad similarity to madness
it gives way to sadness
it is the body that betrays
the heart that says
and the love that walks out
and the minds always in doubts

this is the final test, the ultimate limit
the zenith, the end of it all
it consumes me completely
and i give in to it
i now dont have a heart
nor do i have a mind
it is now just music of the inner me
and is one of its kind
this is my tryst with me
the union of me with mine
i cry out in the darkness
and i hear my own voice
i have made the dreadful
and the most difficult choice........

A HEAP

i feel the tears flowing down my face
and i think, it may have lessened my pain
i feel my life slipping through
running past me like these tears
running down my eyes
how i want you to hold me
how much i yearn for your touch
but you lie beside me, asleep on the couch
i feel love & pain alike
i think i enjoy pain now
i like the tears & welcome the grief
i am now a handful of feelings, flesh & femininity, a heap.

AMISS

it hurts, it hurts deep & it hurts some more
but, after a while, when it has hurt enough
it will hurt no more
it is rude, it is resilient and it is rough
the pain i feel is like Phoenix
it emanates from inside me
goes away, dies and lets me be
rises again, greater than before
turns me into a creature who can love no more
i am naked as a whore
i see ahead, i look above
only to see my own shadow
and m broken heart
i am my own foe
it wasn't meant to be, i was a curse from the start...

I GO ON.......

i go on....the winds try but not deter me
the world makes its choice
to disown me
but i go on
everyone turns their back towards me
but i go on
i hear someone call out my name
but i go on
i fear my own resilience
but i go on
i look for live, i yearn for protection
but i go on
i watch nature, i long to be held
but i go on
i wait for salvation
but i go on
i hear the sounds in my head telling me to stop
but i still go on
i say my prayers & i know they shall be answered
and i go on
i wait, i sit, i retrospect
but then, again, i go on
i love, i admire, i forgive
but i go on
i cant go on anymore
But i go on.

my journey

vast, limitless expansion of the earth & space
all in front of me
coaxing me to start my journey
my journey to the inner depths of my soul
to where i came from, to where i am leading.
my mind wavers, my thoughts are overpowered
by the fast-blowing winds
by the sounds of silence.
i see my reflection in the window glass
my hair covering my face
my body covering my unharmed soul
body as a veil on my soul
my inner conscience is alarmed
and i wonder at the beauty of creation
i am amazed at the intricacies of the Creator
i marvel looking at my own hands
i am made aware of the supreme joy of all
to surrender, to let go, to get enthralled

time is mine

depth measures the extent

the extent of being...the extent there is

hope measures the faith...the love there is

and distance measures the extent there is...

breaths measure the time there is

time...only time is the measure of it all

neither does it stop nor does it apall

but it goes on...washing away each sorrow

blowing away each pain...giving hope for tomorrow

casually, meekly it comes to your aid

it helps you summon to the enormous pain

it makes you realise the secret

it unfolds its own mystery

its curse is regret

it marks its own trajectory

time, the ultimate, the sublime

the ongoing; it eventually makes everything fine...

time is everflowing...

time is mine....

It looked like end of the road to me...and the beginning of life...it looked like it's dawn...like a new sunrise....like i knew it was coming towards me...the truth and my destiny.